Fox's Corner

Love Of Mirage

2010-06-26T14:36:00.000+08:00

park with some crowds walking, chatting and playing.
A park with some lovers or couples dating.
A park with some families having their great time.

This is a park where our story starts, Park Never-land.

A girl has been waiting at center in Never-land for a guy to meet her while the guy is hiding and observe her at far. The girl wanted to see the guy for very long time while the guy keep avoid her. She always want to ask the guy for the reason he hide from her, but she doesn't has a chance to do so.

The girl's name is Lydia, she work as a writer at NEXUS newspaper. She also involve in photography for her hobby. Eventually she also join some photography competition for interest. Every time she join the competition, she also get placed as 1st runner up. She feel very interest and curious toward to the champion as he doesn't show up for award ceremony. The champion always send someone to collect for him. Everything that she know about the champion are his masterpiece and his name, Matthew.

Actually, Matthew and Lydia already known each other. Just that Lydia still haven't figure out the Matthew she know is the Matthew was she looking for. Matthew actually working as office boy at NEXUS newspaper too, but his actual identity is the owner of NEXUS newspaper. He also share the same hobby with Lydia which is photography. However, only certain peoples know about Matthew actual identity.

Matthew start photography since young when he travel with his father for photo shooting. He is talented as his father, a famous photographer. He learn a lot from his father and start shooting with his father after 2 year of travel with him. Many professional photographer also amazed by Matthew talent after he held his first photo gallery presentation at 12. Photographer Matthew, a name always heard in photography field.

After Matthew's father passed away, he inherit his father business at age of 18.
With his capabilities in business management, he able to keep his father's business running well and continue his photography as he travel around the world. For a very fine day while Matthew on his way to the office, he met Lydia at the lobby. She is very nervous as she seems to interview for her very first job. Matthew have no idea why she caught his attention, so he decide to observe her from a distance.

From what Matthew has observed, she just an originally girl that can be found anywhere. But something is different among her and other girls, she is very charming and easy to caught other attention. Just when Matthew want to confront with her, she went into a lift. So Matthew thought he will never saw such a charming girl anymore, however fate takes place in their life as Matthew saw her again in NEXUS. After she finish her interview, then she seems in hurry and rush out from NEXUS. Matthew has completely no chance for asking for her name, but he found her name in her resume. Lydia, is her name.

Two complete strangers and one connection point which makes their story completely different. During a daily meeting between Matthew and his business core managers, there is an issue raise up for hiring a new writer for special reporting in their newspaper, among so many candidates, Matthew decide to choose Lydia for their newspaper as a new writer. And so, this decision had change Lydia's life completely. In order for Matthew understand more about his employees thought, he often work as office boy in his office and usually help his company to take some commercial shooting.

As for Lydia, her job is to write about photography in NEXUS. Since she like photography, so she found no difficulties for interview some professional photographer and give some comment on certain picture. As soon as NEXUS release her post in their paper, it receive many good comment and increases NEXUS reader. Those responds were expected by Matthew. Among so many photographer, she wanted to interview Matthew, but she never get a chance to do so as Matthew is very low profile.

She try to get any information about Matthew, but since he working with her, he easily avoid her as he wanted to keep low profile. But Lydia did not force her way for interview Matthew, instead she doing her task usually and try to track Matthew information when she finish her task. From what Matthew had observe about Lydia, he found that she is very respondsible for her job, has great sense in photography, great charisma. No matter how Matthew observe, she seems perfect for his ideal life partner.

One day, after Lydia finish one of the interviews. She is tired and rest at a park. Matthew pass by after his shooting and sense a great image about Lydia. So he taken her picture without her notice. A sunset setting, the orange but gold light reflect on her fair skin, the shadow of her body surround by the light of sunset. Just by the second Matthew takes the picture, bird fly around the sky. A beautiful picture have taken by Matthew again.

As usual, Lydia will participate in every photography competition. She is supprise about receiving a call for great model award notice in her photography competition. She does win a 1st runner-up award in the competition, but she still get an extra award for modeling. So she went and notice the picture taken by Matthew had won the champion and let Lydia to receive a special award. During the award ceremony, she receive Matthew's email as a return for modeling in his picture.

They communicate via email, Lydia always tell him about her interview with who while Matthew will teach Lydia more about photography. Starting with formal email and slowly end up as close friend based email. Their chatting topic is not limited to photography but are everything about them. Whenever Lydia in trouble, Matthew will try to cover her up, but he never shown up in front of Lydia. Both of them were very close to each other yet very far. Just every moment Lydia need him, his help will reach Lydia, but Lydia unable to reach Matthew when she want to.

All peoples around them will notice their changes. They look more happy and almost like honeymoon with their partner. But they did not mention they were in a relationship. Actually, both of them never start a relationship at all. But Lydia notice this changes, so she ask Matthew to have a face-to-face meeting. Matthew is very happy about this request, but just when Matthew wanted to reply the message, he just suddenly cannot see a single thing in front of him. After a while, he able to see again.

So Matthew decide to do a full body checkup in his friend's clinic and get a unexpected result on his report. Matthew has a small cancer in his brain and at his sight nerve. His friend explain clearly to Matthew about his cancer and how dangerous of it. Actually, the cancer is very small and able to cure after a surgery but it is at Matthew sight nerve. so the risk will be very high, the worst result will cause Matthew unable to see anymore.

After receive this bad news, Matthew reject Lydia request and annouce to public about his resignation as a photographer. Many comment flood to NEXUS for requesting Matthew's interview about his announcement. So NEXUS assign Lydia to search for Matthew for interview. Ever since Matthew reject Lydia for meeting her, Matthew never reply Lydia's email. What he did is to receive the email and back her up quietly.

Lydia sent a lot of email to Matthew, she know he had read all of them. So she sent an email to Matthew to meet up on her birthday at the park where he capture her picture, the starting point of all, park Never-land.

Lydia waiting at the park, while Matthew watching her from far. They both wanted to see each other, but Matthew do not want to hurt Lydia. After a hour waiting, there is a group of youngster surround Lydia. Matthew saw this, so he rush to save Lydia. Just before youngster wanted to say something, a fist hit on their face by Matthew. So Matthew had chase them out. Lydia was shocked when Matthew explain his true identity to Lydia. After Matthew finish explain his true identity, he faint. Lydia carry him in her arm and call for ambulance.

Everything had explained to Lydia during Matthew's faint. By the time Matthew woke up, he saw Lydia is beside him and holding his hand. Before Matthew say anything, Lydia just tell him to do the surgery.

"To me, Your life is more important than everything else. If you unable to see, I will be your eye. If you unable to move, I will be your leg. If you unable to take, I will be your hand. So, just do the surgery."

Matthew have nothing else to say, he clearly understand what Lydia just say. So he decide to have the surgery.

Ever since the surgery end, no one know where Matthew and Lydia went. There are many rumor about them, some says Matthew unable to see, some says Matthew had passed away, some say they having a new life at Hawaii, some say they live separately in Japan. No matter what rumors have mention about them, none of them were true. As the fact was they live happily and doing everything they like regardless what happen to Matthew, Lydia also at his side for everything.

Lyric 2: 想念。看见

2010-06-14T07:06:00.001+08:00

我很想念，却看不见，
徘徊在回忆之间。

我停留，你往前，
我看不见你双眼，
视线没了交流，
你在我的对面，
对话却被拒绝。

其实我知道我们没结果，
其实我知道你不爱我，
你只不过想要安慰我，
却深深伤害我。

与你的距离，
看似接近却遥远，
此时此刻想轻抚你脸。

我看不见
围墙在我们之间，
所有举动全被拒绝。

其实你知道你非真心爱我，
其实你知道我们没对错，
只能当一切是我错过，
一次让你真心爱我，

你不必难过。

其实我知道我们没承诺，
其实我知道你没爱我，
你善良的安慰，
成了我流血的心。

我不能接受，
让你因我伤心，
决定了，
把幸福归还于你的手心。

Lyric 1: one chance

2010-06-14T06:50:00.001+08:00

下着雨的那一天，
你出现在我面前，
泪水汪汪在你眼，
手牵手只是对我的亏欠。

你不大愿意，
但是还在这里，
很想问你，
会不会对我回心转意。
*
I never wanted you to say sorry
I just want you to be happy
是不是我的方法让你伤心。

Please give me another chance
To show that I capable for your love
只要你愿意，我会永远留在你心里。
*
你的幸福就是我的快乐，
从没对你说过我爱你，
不想你有负担，
你当我还是朋友。

你现在的伤心，
停留在我脑海里，
当初我的放弃，
让你选择一个伤害你的爱情.
*
I never wanted you to say sorry
I just want you to be happy
是不是我的方法让你伤心。

Please give me another chance
To show that I capable for your love
只要你愿意，我会永远留在你心里。
*
You never be alone
Never alone again
As I will continue guide you to the end
Give me another chance
To prove how much I love you
I promise that never hurt you.
*
I never wanted you to say sorry
I just want you to be happy
是不是我的方法让你伤心。

Please give me another chance
To show that I capable for your love
只要你愿意，我会永远留在你心里。
*

One Sided Love

2010-06-14T06:48:00.000+08:00

A girl receives a diary of a guy who loves her from someone……………….

26 of May 2008
…. This year….. College has a lot of new comers. As I processing to my new study environment, my new course filled by a lot familiar faces as well as those new faces. I’m taking a mixture of technical and also business environment type of courses, and I never knew that I would really stuck into this relation which refer as one-sided by others.

27 of May 2008
I am the guy who easily likes someone, so as I thought, like is not really mean love, so I didn’t really consider how to chase a girl or really think about what is the feeling of loving someone so blindly. The first day of my study…… is really blur to me, since I didn’t really have my mood setting to study. I met her on the first day, which I didn’t really pay attention to her. As I just thought, she just a normal girl to me. But fates twist this fact upside down, and slowly, this girl really takes important roles in my heart without giving me a notice.

28 of May 2008
Our first encounter is when we having a course discussion of picking a course rep. At that moment, my world starts fill me up with many colors. In my first impression of her, will be a cheerful girl, having a very cute personality. I really can’t stop myself of teasing her very much, since every times she gives me some laughable “feed back”. In my view, she is very colorful, whereby she is too colorful to me, a guy that is very grey in his mind.

1 of June 2008
She really does not force people for following her way of doing. I also very impress in her way of doing things. In other word, she is very responsible. But somehow she keeps getting more burdens on her shoulder. The most forceful encounter between us will be I putting her into our courses treasurer position. Even she refuse at the first place, however I and her friends manage to put her in it. But the result turns out fine.

10 of June 2008
It been a while that we in the same tutorial class. I have tried to participate in part of her life, but it turns that it too much for me. She is really a smart girl, a good chef also and she also very “social able” with others. But the funniest part I found about her is, she really can eat a lot of snack but won’t get fat. Talking to her make me feel look like an idiot. Since I keep do something funny like telling cold joke in the middle of a conversation. But at this moment, I really do want to say to her, “I like you”.

17 of June 2008
This just a beginning of the semester, as a senior student of this college, I been a navigator of college for them. I have shown them all places that we might go for our course study, practical as well as our tutorial. I do feel nice when I able to help her in something, even it is something that is very small. Every times that you call me for help, you will be my top priority of all my tasks. “I’m always available when you need me.”
23 of June 2008
Even I just able to be with her in college, but I really try to make it that I can be with her anytime. Just that she no need my protection, as she can really take good care of herself which make me feel pleased about her safety. She stays in a rented hostel with her friends. She also has her own car, so transport to college is not an issue for her.
“You have every thing that you needed, do you still need me?”

14 of July 2008
Today I go buy present with other for the upcoming birthday for 3 person. When I walk into living cabin, I’m full of idea of getting those 3 their present. The moment I picking the present, I start to think about you. The present I choose slowly influence by your image. Suddenly I spaced out just because I keep thinking about you.
“At this moment, what are you doing?”

19 of July 2008
today is the day that we organize the birthday party for them in red box plus in pavilion. You say you didn’t expect me like to sing. I like to sing because you are there. I always want to train myself to sing well in love song. So can confess to you in a romantic way but it is a dream that cannot come true. You sing very well, but I can’t sing with you.
“Your voice is an angel voice from the heaven to give me hope and courage to live on”

15 of August 2008
A month before our final exam, you looks very stress and work very hard in it. I feel heart pain when I see you so stress. But I can’t help you in your study, because I didn’t study for my final exam. Whenever you ask me about the exam, I keep telling you the truth but you just don’t believe in me.
“I giving you the truth, but you choose not to believe me, this hurts me a lot”

9 of September 2008
today is my birthday. College gives me a very big present… which is 2 final exam English papers. When she wish me happy birthday, I really feel that I am the luckiest guy in the world even she didn’t prepare me any gift. This is the first time I be grateful that I able to live for so long. Among all people’s birthday wish, I still remember very clearly the tone, the way and also her face expression when wishing me “happy birthday”. However I didn’t give her my respond in a good way…. I just like keep hiding from her, as like she is too bright too shining for me.
“Do you know that you really are the one I really care?”

10 of October 2008
it been a month since I last seen you in college. Now you look like a bit strange to me, and I finally know the reason behind it. You have found yourself a bf to love. When I found out this fact, I feel sad but in other ways, I truthfully wish you happy with your bf.
“No matter you have bf or not, I will always wanted you to be the happiest woman in this world”

24 of October 2008
I successfully bid a huge teddy bear just for RM85. But out of my mind, I straight think I get it just for her birthday on next week, 1st of November. I do not have enough courage to carry that bear to her by my own, so I ask my ex course mate to help me. But he set me up and gives a big surprise for her and also for me. All of my classmate say that the bear is look almost like me. Got one of the guy says that I giving that bear to her because I want to give myself to her as present. I do not know why I give her, but I know I must give her the present.
“I cannot always be with you, but I hope the bear I give you will replace me to stay with you”

1 of November 2008
today is the exact day of her birthday. I whole day have no mood to study my workshop because I feel wanted to go Genting with her and her friends. But however I didn’t go because I do not have enough courage to face her and her bf. I really scare that I cannot control myself. So I didn’t go to Genting in the end.
“Please forgive my cowardliness because I just can’t face you normally”

3 of November 2008
Today, her friend told me that because of me, she cried at night. So I feel guilty and go buy gift for her. I go get a pretty box and a set of 600 papers that used to fold paper swam. It is a difficult for me since the paper is small sized paper. So I rush and rush to complete the 100 paper swam. I even sleep very late for it. Even I caught a cold due to the heavy rain today.
“May those swam I make for you will bring you happiness”

4 of November 2008
after my long hard work of preparing her gift for begging her forgiveness. I only know that is just a prank from her friend. However I still give her the gift. Because the gift I give her is really want her to be happy. No matter she got bf or not.
“What I done is just hope you can be more happy than usual.”

In the end of the diary, it wrote
“I do not know when I started to love you, but I really love you. I LOVE YOU.”

The girl can’t stop her tears dropping out from her eyes.

Dance?

2010-06-14T06:47:00.000+08:00

I like to dance, but I do not know how to dance;
I know how to dance, but I do not like to dance.

People who like to dance but do not know how to dance will often wandering in the dancing game world to continue enjoy dancing.

People who know how to dance but do not like to dance will often dance well in real life but hate to join in dancing game.

I am the 1st type of people, while the girl I like is the 2nd type of people. I first meet her is on a dancing performance. Her dancing and steps make a very huge impact to my mind which I can’t stop myself from getting her contact. Even she doesn’t willing to give at first, but in the end she also gives her contact to me after a few times of pursuing.

I am a super hot fan for those dancing like hip hop, locking, pop ping, reggae and also those stunt. For her, she just dance for her need, she doesn’t like to dance. Or I can say she just do not enjoy dancing. She is a very pretty girl, but her still single. I always ask her why she still single till now while she actually very nice. She just replies me “I believe in fate, if I meet someone who love me and I love him then I will couple with him no matter who is he”. I feel shocked about the answer, if that guy already married, then she will suffer. I really do not want to see this happen. Believe or not, she can cook better than me even she doesn’t cook very often. Maybe this is what we call talent.

Since she is very good in dance, I ask her for tutor me in dance. Of cause, I have to pay tutor fee for her. Maybe I just too clumsy for dance, I learn for few months but I still do not have any progressive improvement in my dance, but she still willing patiently teaches me in dance. “Step by step, slowly move here…..” her teaching keep repeat in my mind which finally make me realize that I not just admire her for her dancing technique but also I love her. That day makes me realize she having the same feeling towards me. On that day, while she teaching me how to dance, I get hurt seriously while I practicing one of the stunts which very serious till I blend my neck 90 degree. She suddenly lost her calm side and keep look for help blindly.

In the end, I had been sent for hospitality for a few months. She comes by everyday with flower and fruits. During this period of hospitality, I finally know why she hates dancing so much. Her father is a profession dancer who always has to perform everywhere. Similar with her mother, she also has to perform with her father. This makes her feel no family love at all. The worst is her parents have a flight accident while going for performance in England. This makes her hate the dancing which let her feel no family love and takes her parents away from her.

Then I find a chance to ask her about what is the exact feeling her holding toward me.
She says this to me, “When I see you get hurt while practicing the stunt, I feel exactly the feeling that I lost my parents because of dance.” At this moment, she in my eyes is just a normal girl. She turns her back on me. I just out of my mind and take my 1st step to hug her with my arm and telling her, “I will not let you be alone again; not even the dancing can makes me let you go away from me”. A long hug till makes us forget all other things include of times.

After the hug, I kiss her on her lips. It is a deep and long kiss until the nurse comes in and she push me back and run off. I want to chase her but due to my current status, the nurse and other hospital staffs stop me from chasing her. After that day, she didn’t come to visit me at all, but when I went to garden for a walk, I feel got someone watching me from a far place. However I feel this feeling is very familiar, whenever I looked back, the feeling is gone.

Until the day that I finally full cure from the hurt, I saw she is waiting for me at the entrance of the hospital. I walk slowly to her as she also does the same. I start to ask her question.
“Are you the one who keep watching me from far place?”
“Yes…..”
“Why you don’t come to visit me directly?”
“I scare……”
“You scare about what?”
“I scare that day you just doing that to me without really love me.”
“You know the answer very well yourself; you just do not admit it”
“I know what…. I….”
I, without letting her to finish her sentence, have actually kissed her to show my very true feeling toward her. And she hug me back as the answer she gives me back which actually means she accept me.

After that day, we started our couple life; we try to get as happy as we can everyday since we cannot predict what will happen. As long we can make as much memory with each other, we are the happiest people in this world.

The END!!

SHE song title part 1

2010-04-02T21:17:00.001+08:00

我们怎么了？为何不能保持微笑？是否他还是不懂？一眼万年的星光，却少了一个人。别说对不起，也别说你爱我，就让我说谢谢你让我爱过你。

I'm sorry

2010-01-09T02:32:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry that i cannot be the one you picked.

I know that I cannot act as him to be with you. What can I do for you now is to pray hard for your happiness. Everytime I saw you with him, I will have a bit jealous but I still feel glad that you are happy. When I know about I not your destined one, I only able to choose to be the outsider between you and him.

I'm sorry that i unable to forget my love for you.

I know that i am selfish for keeping you in my heart without directly told you face to face. But my action already told you without my voice. I really sorry for making you suffer for unable to accept my feeling. Sometime i will feel sad for not able to be with you in a memorable picture. But still thank you for letting to create those picture for you without me beside.

I'm sorry for not able to protect you.

Since the one in your heart wasn't me, everytime you have problem, I will not be the first one to know even I want to. When you are hurted, I wasn't there to be with you. Even that I wasn't the one, but I still wish to protect you. If you told me stay away from you, I will but I still unable completely forget you.

I'm sorry for decide to forget my love.

Since my love will cause us to suffer, so I decide to forget my love for you. However I wasn't able to promise I able to 100% to perform so since you are more than everything for me.

Without you, I will not be complete.
By meeting you, I have growth.
For loving you, I know.
For forgeting you, I felt.
For everything, Thank you

Story

2009-12-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

Everything in this world have spirit, include a toy bear that girl always hold.
After been through so much, i finally finish my role in her life.
I don't expect anything from her as return,
i just want to let her know, her happiness is my wish.

Usually people don't believe that i really exist in this world,
because their mind is been blocked by current world trends.
Their mind is not as free as children anymore, they can't accept what is new to them,
or unusual to them.
That why they always thought their children not to believe my existence.

But i don't really care about that, as long there is someone need me to share everything
they want. That is what i believe.
I born in a factory, then send to a shop.
in the shop, other companion won't talk with me.
It seems they are dead, but the truth is their heart is dead.
I been brought by a family as a christmas present for their daugther.

Her name is very nice, sweet and adorable.
She been named as nicole, my very first and the last owner.
She still in primary school, while i am her very first toy bear.
When her parent give me as a present to her, she very happy.
So, for our first night, she call to me almost the whole night,
i really want to reply her, but my voice can't reach her.
But She had give me a name, Norman.

Everytimes after she talk to me, she will go to her desk and write diary.
I don't know what she write in her diary,
because she say this is a secret that i can't know.
But she say she will write down some of our chat topic to remember.

I very happy that i finally found a owner that willing to share her thought to me.
To be exact, i should say that i have been found by a good owner.
everytimes she come back from school,
she will come to me first before doing other thing.
This action really make me very happy.

Times goes by, Soon it comes to our anniversary meeting date.
She brought me outside for a walk,
that is my first time i ever been so close with the nature.
She bring to a lake and talk about her dream.
Her dream is to be a good wife and have a happy marriage with the one she love.
But in my view, she still so young and already think like this.
i can't stop by to laugh, however she found out and keep tell me not to laugh.
After so long, it seems that our thought can be share together.

Then a few year have pass, we still stick to our close relationship,
She still have her cute character in her.
Almost everything is still remain same,
but only one thing not remain, that is she is getting more adorable.
I'm very pround of her, and wish to stay as long as i can.
Within this few year, she take a very good care of me.
but this had make her a habbit, which is got to hold on me for every night.
This is what i mean by CUTE characteristic.
I think i might be too over for it,
but a secondary school girl still need to hold a toy bear only can sleep,
won't you take this as CUTE characteristic for their age?

And finally she graduate from her secondary shool.
Our relationship soon will come to the end.
that is what i believe.
However, she still remain the same, she still let me stay beside her.
No matter what she do for me, my life soon come to an end.
One night, her house on fire, but she still asleep, no matter how i try,
she still won't awake.
Then i make a prayer to god, i willing to sacrifice myself for her safety.
It seems that god heard my prayer, and create miracle for both of us.
that nicole is safe from the fire and unharmed.
however i got to pay the price, i been burn and left only my half body.
When nicole awake, she hug me and cry, from time to time, she cry more loud.
but i say "Don't cry anymore, your life still got to continue".
It seems that she able to heard me.
And i say "I getting very tired, i want to rest, but i will always be with you".
Then i very tired and fall in the eternal sleep.
But before i fully sleep, i heard, "I will take good care of myself, don't worry about me
and take a good rest".

when i wake up, i saw myself in a white place while a bright light is in front of me.
the light say, "You have done yourself a good job".
That is the time i know i can't be with nicole anymore.
I doesn't feel sad, but i'm glad that she able to live.

Everything in this world have spirit, include a toy bear that girl always hold.
After been through so much, i finally finish my role in her life.
I don't expect anything from her as return,
i just want to let her know, her happiness is my wish.

Usually people don't believe that i really exist in this world,
because their mind is been blocked by current world trends.
Their mind is not as free as children anymore, they can't accept what is new to them,
or unusual to them.
That why they always thought their children not to believe my existence.

But i don't really care about that, as long there is someone need me to share everything
they want. That is what i believe.
I born in a factory, then send to a shop.
in the shop, other companion won't talk with me.
It seems they are dead, but the truth is their heart is dead.
I been brought by a family as a christmas present for their daugther.

Her name is very nice, sweet and adorable.
She been named as nicole, my very first and the last owner.
She still in primary school, while i am her very first toy bear.
When her parent give me as a present to her, she very happy.
So, for our first night, she call to me almost the whole night,
i really want to reply her, but my voice can't reach her.
But She had give me a name, Norman.

Everytimes after she talk to me, she will go to her desk and write diary.
I don't know what she write in her diary,
because she say this is a secret that i can't know.
But she say she will write down some of our chat topic to remember.

I very happy that i finally found a owner that willing to share her thought to me.
To be exact, i should say that i have been found by a good owner.
everytimes she come back from school,
she will come to me first before doing other thing.
This action really make me very happy.

Times goes by, Soon it comes to our anniversary meeting date.
She brought me outside for a walk,
that is my first time i ever been so close with the nature.
She bring to a lake and talk about her dream.
Her dream is to be a good wife and have a happy marriage with the one she love.
But in my view, she still so young and already think like this.
i can't stop by to laugh, however she found out and keep tell me not to laugh.
After so long, it seems that our thought can be share together.

Then a few year have pass, we still stick to our close relationship,
She still have her cute character in her.
Almost everything is still remain same,
but only one thing not remain, that is she is getting more adorable.
I'm very pround of her, and wish to stay as long as i can.
Within this few year, she take a very good care of me.
but this had make her a habbit, which is got to hold on me for every night.
This is what i mean by CUTE characteristic.
I think i might be too over for it,
but a secondary school girl still need to hold a toy bear only can sleep,
won't you take this as CUTE characteristic for their age?

And finally she graduate from her secondary shool.
Our relationship soon will come to the end.
that is what i believe.
However, she still remain the same, she still let me stay beside her.
No matter what she do for me, my life soon come to an end.
One night, her house on fire, but she still asleep, no matter how i try,
she still won't awake.
Then i make a prayer to god, i willing to sacrifice myself for her safety.
It seems that god heard my prayer, and create miracle for both of us.
that nicole is safe from the fire and unharmed.
however i got to pay the price, i been burn and left only my half body.
When nicole awake, she hug me and cry, from time to time, she cry more loud.
but i say "Don't cry anymore, your life still got to continue".
It seems that she able to heard me.
And i say "I getting very tired, i want to rest, but i will always be with you".
Then i very tired and fall in the eternal sleep.
But before i fully sleep, i heard, "I will take good care of myself, don't worry about me
and take a good rest".

when i wake up, i saw myself in a white place while a bright light is in front of me.
the light say, "You have done yourself a good job".
That is the time i know i can't be with nicole anymore.
I doesn't feel sad, but i'm glad that she able to live.

New great story intro (Love of Mirage)

2009-11-09T10:23:00.003+08:00

Someone is there but not reachable in real.
When we sad, our voice reach to each other.
When we happy, we wish each other.
when we want to meet each other, we are forbidden to do so.

Love like a mirage, we can feel it but not touch it.
Love like a wind, we can feel it but not own it.

Sorrow, Happiness, Angry, and other emotion that we wanted to share.

Love of Mirage release on 25 december 2009~~~

Love Story 1

2009-07-21T13:38:00.003+08:00

I looking at sea. Standing where we always stand. I was waiting for sunset. It been many year for me to come back here. I read your letter. I finally know what really happen. But why you not here anymore? The moment that i lost you, is it already destined to lost you forever? I'm looking on the horizon line while sun was getting down. The color of sky slowly from blue to grey, then grey to orange. While at the final moment, whole sky become lovely red for me, and i know it is the moment we always wait to look at it together.

sky turn dark very soon, but i still waiting at the same spot. Just hoping you would be with me for the great moment just now. However, i understand that you will not make it anymore ever since you leave me.

The sky completely dark, similar to my heart. My surrounding have some small light to lighten up our darkness, Firefly. This is the fourth time that I experience this view. We had been watching firefly after sunset for 3 three times. Everytimes we always amazed by firefly. it almost like our mini starry sky. Well, we did have 1 time that we amazed by both firefly and starry sky. it really bring a lot of hope to our life. No matter what we do, or what we did, it always is my treasure memory. However, this time have less firefly, maybe the environment has been damage, so they will not appear in large group anymore.

At this moment, i really hope you can be with me for this scenario. our very precious memory.

i decide to camp at this spot for continue observation on firefly and starry night. while looking on the sky, there is a large shinning star which make me remember the day we found that star together. It always be our hobby to give a name to those big shinning star. I also often argue with you for naming those star. Seeing the star we name last time, "Forever". I slowly recall back the promise make to each other,

"we want to be together forever."

now is a dream only, a dream that never come true. looking upon the star, i found that "forever" slowly grown dark. while the sky slowly grow brighter, i just remember the night is end, while the day had just start.

Today is my last day of my holiday, i decide to go around the places we hang together most, and start to recall more and more happy memory about moment that we spend together.

最美与完整

2009-07-05T06:59:00.002+08:00

每当我们听见“最美”这个字眼，我们会想起最精彩的一个回忆，也是一个很难忘记的回忆。
如果听见“完整”呢？大家应该会想起“所有”吧？为何完整？完整和等于没太大的分别，但是一段完整的爱情，并不是最美的。
一些人会问，完整不是说拥有所有的因素吗？
但是从另一个角度来看，所谓的完整，会让人麻木。
拿一个话题来让你们明白，为什么最理想的婚姻是用完整来形容？为什么不用最美呢？不是说完整不好，或者是完整很无聊，但是，完整不会是最美的。
人们每天都用最美来形容一些过去式的恋情，或者是婚姻。但是，人们会问，为什么最美的恋情或婚姻不能是完整的？或是永远式的？
这问题的答案是，人们的心理。每当一段很美的爱情过了或是就要过去了，才会后悔，所以他们都用最美来形容。
完整是用来形容永久，最美是形容最精彩难忘，为什么完整不能说是最美的？
因为，完整的不能每天都是最美的，它也是有低潮，但是它永远保持在固定的水准，不会离开那地平线，所以我说完整不是最美。
拥有一段完整的婚姻，一段最美的爱情是很重要的。虽然说我们不能同一时间拥有完整和最美，但是我们的一生能拥有所有。
一段最美的爱情能建造一段完整的婚姻。
但是一段完整的爱情，不一定能建造最美/完整的婚姻。
因为在爱情里的理所当然的事其实不是理所当然。
可能你的爱情很完整，但是也有一定的几率让你不能和他走上完整的婚姻。

10 min story

2009-06-01T13:40:00.002+08:00

what do you all think about 10 min??

it is short or it is long?
how many 10 min we have in our life?
how many 10 min left for us?
what we can do with our 10 min?

nothing??? because it too short?
a lot... because it far too long for you?

no matter what type of people you are, a 10 min may change your entire life.

in the past 10 min.... i was looking in my facebook.... to check more updates from fren.... but in this following 10 min.... i going to write out something..... something that hope to change all your mindset... and take caution about our time.

Time.... everyone also have same amount of time.. but how come some say they not enough time.... while some have more than enough?

The following story is a short love story... whereby a guy regret of his stupid decision.

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I am fox... currently i was in internship with a company... time flow slow at start... but flow fast after......... i may have a very good girl friend.... but i doesn't have her as my girlfriend..... due to my stupid decision....

a few month ago.....
Girl: Fox.... can i have 10 min from you?
Fox: why?
Girl: ...can you give me your 10 min?
Fox: Sure, when you want it?
Girl: now..... come to the garden.
Fox:... but i have to travel for it.... can we meet at 3pm?
Girl:.... ok, but make sure you won't late.
Fox: ok.

at start... i didn't really pay attention to her.. i also didn't think anything will happen to her.... so i just go there by following my plan..... however... traffic jam.... and i have late 10 min to reach the garden....

within the 10 min....

Fox: why ..... why she didn't pick up her phone?
Fox: why?
Fox: ... i guess i have to reach there asap...

so... after 5 min of redial... i stop....

but when i reach there at 3.10pm.......

she........
she........
she not there...... anymore......

but i still wait for her... hope that she will come....

at 4 pm.....
a call from her phone....
it is from her parent....

she.... has an accident while she waiting me at our meeting place...

from the day onward.... i cannot see her anymore.... what i only can do.... is ... to remember in my heart.

if i can take off 10 min early.... everything will change.... however.... the 10 min before i start prepare... i was enjoy my gaming... so... what happen to her.... is my fault.... and what i can do is just remember her... and take care of her parent.... in her place....

the end!!

P.S this story..... not a real story.... if it is really happen on other people.... sorry.... i don't know about that.... this just a 10min thought story..... extremly short story.